Miraculous: Pregnancy Leads One Woman to a Healthy Body Image


After dodging pregnancy for my entire adult life, I am pregnant. Glee is not the word I would use to describe my reaction to this news; stunned silence is more like it. When I saw that second glaring line show up on that little pink stick, everything stopped. The cell phone went unused, the blog went unwritten, and, unsure what else to do, I allowed myself to slip into many days of deep, satisfying sleep.

I did go off of birth control on purpose — I can’t say the pregnancy was exactly unplanned, but after 15 years of solid, unrelenting birth control pills, I assumed that it would take a while for an egg to drop. Not so much — my body was ready. My husband is thrilled and very proud of his “boys” for getting the job done so fast. I, on the other hand, am floating through nine months of every emotion you can imagine, from hormonally-induced peacefulness to bone-chilling dread.

I am a personal trainer, certified in Pre/Post Natal Fitness and Nutrition and Wellness Counseling. I am also a person who has faced debilitating body image issues and food addiction. I have worked with many women throughout their pregnancies, but the prospect of my own body enduring a pregnancy was beyond me. I was never the girl who dreamed about having babies; I was the girl who dreamed about seeing the Taj Mahal at daybreak.

In all of the years I spent deeply fearing pregnancy — fearing the implications on my body, how much weight I would gain, how I would never get my body back — it never occurred to me that pregnancy might finally teach me, once and for all, to not give a damn what people think about my body. In fact, I never considered that it would teach me anything about anything, except how to endure pain, suffering, and exhaustion.
But here I am, and there’s a baby boy on the way. After overcoming the initial shock, I am returning to the land of the living with a few lessons learned from this crazy thing called pregnancy. They are simple and unexpected, and I hope I can carry them with me for the rest of my life.

Food is for growth and nourishment.
 I have always understood, in theory, that food is fuel and should be utilized and valued as such. But somehow, it always came back to being about boredom and control, self-medicating and quelling loneliness, a sugar rush and a nice satisfying serotonin bath. In pregnancy, there is a constant awareness of exactly what is needed at the moment, and there are immediate results if I feed my body the wrong or right thing. Food is fuel, powerful and necessary, and the body is going to use that fuel down to its most minuscule resource.

There is a time for rest, a time to give yourself a break.

I am a trainer. It is my job to push people to the limits, to help them break through their boundaries to reach a higher level of strength and endurance. But when the workout is done, in order to build muscle, recovery time is needed. Rest is a crucial part of the equation. In pregnancy, there is no option: A pregnant woman is called upon to rest, and there is no negotiating. Rest is imperative for health, pregnant or not. I have learned to take heed, to pay attention when rest is needed and to make time for it. I have learned to let go of the guilt of taking a few moments for rest and to enjoy it — the remainder of the day will be so much more productive.

If you listen hard enough, your body will tell you when the resting time is over.
After days or weeks of down time, you will begin to twitch and ache for movement. You will find yourself squirming in your office chair during the day, and tossing and turning in bed at night. If you ignore the call for motion, you will slowly grow lethargic. This is the moment you must get up and go for a walk, head to the gym, or call a friend to go out dancing. The longer you wait, the harder it will be to get going. Give your body what it needs, and it will ask for it again the following day. The first 12 weeks I was pregnant, I needed rest, plain and simple. Then my body started telling me to move, and I slowly, tentatively ventured back to the gym and back to the sidewalks.

I won’t call pregnancy beautiful. It still seems kind of bizarre and freaky to me, but I will call it miraculous. It is miraculous that the body knows how to create another human being when called upon, no matter how freaked out the mother is! And it is miraculous for me, a lifelong body-image cripple, to be free — finally — from trying to fit the mold. Instead, I find beauty in the urgency of hunger and the clarity of purpose, in the body doing its job: eating, breathing and moving.

I look forward to taking this knowledge with me, back to the world of the non-pregnant, because the human body is no less miraculous when it is not making a baby. It just took this massive, life-altering event for me to finally disregard what the haters in my own mind have to say. I’m focusing squarely and intently on the wondrous inner workings of my physical body, loving it exactly as it is and allowing it to do its thing.


its_me's picture

You are going through the most wonderful phase of your life. Enjoy this as much as you can. There are certain complications but you can overcome them. Consult your doctor for best suggestions. For most health problems there are good medication available. For Candida yeast infection, Threelac is a good medication.

timtim's picture

Last night I visited Baltimore Crab & Seafood restaurant and must say that the food was great. Cool place to meet and dine with friends.

imwilliam's picture

Every pregnant woman should be very careful about their diet and health during these nine months. Regular check ups are must but you should also make sure that overall you have absolutely no health problems. We should all put little more efforts to make sure that we are healthy internally. All our parts are in proper condition. For having a healthy colon, colon irrigation process is very effective.

george15's picture

Nice Post.

You are experiencing a special phase in your life. You are worried but this is the time to relax. Just eat right, take the prescribed medication and stay in touch with your doctor. Technology has eased things for us. Buying medication is now simple thanks to the internet. Just buy your medicines online, in fact one can also found legal steroids like winstrol for sale online.

crazysony's picture

Thank you for providing this great and interesting post!I've recently gave birth to a little boy and during pregnancy I felt great and sexy but after giving birth I feel very depressed as I put more than 10 kilos and it is very hard to keep a diet.A friend recommended me to take some d-bol and to go to the gym in order to loose weight.

I must admit it. The pregnancy it's a step hard to move one. My wife was pregnant recently and she loved yogurt, I think that I could have easily start a frozen yogurt business plan if I wanted. It's not an easy part of life, I guess.

This is a great post.Women have always been concern about their looks.My wife is driving me crazy with her boring diet because I haven't eat a decent meal for almost four weeks.

RoseTeller's picture

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crazysony's picture

Thank you for providing this great and useful post!When I was pregnant I ate a lot of junk food and I became obese.This is why I've started to make some colon cleanse sessions that helped me to loose almost 10 kilos.

I know how hard it's to lose weight after a pregnancy. My wife was in depression because of that, but we found a very good way to solve this and we've also found ways to save money, because we've spended a lot in the past. But we had luck and we've met an amazing doctor who helped us.

imwilliam's picture

Although almost every woman on this earth love becoming a mother they tend to get nervous when they are pregnant. When you are pregnant a lot of things change and you have to go through this phase accepting the changes. It is absolutely normal to be stressed but you have to learn to deal with the stress. Maintaining career and pregnancy is not easy, but try to stay relaxed all the time even in your workplace.

its_me's picture

Pregnancy despite being the most blissful phase of any woman's life it is also the most stressful phase. But pregnancy could be a problem sometimes especially when it is unplanned. Teen pregnancy is a serious issue, there is free pregnancy test available which would help you be sure of your condition.

Thank you for this interesting article.After giving birth I had some health issues and among them was acne.I went to a lot of doctors but none of their treatment worked.Finally I tried some Natural Remedies Acne and my problems were gone.I recommend to all of you who suffer form the same problem.

It is not always possible to feel glee, some women even freak out after getting the news. It is after all a very stressful period in any woman's life, but be pragmatic and just relax. Your body is going to change so you could consider going for a makeover, you could grow longer hair and change your dressing style.

Indeed, pregnancy leads a woman to a perfect body image, especially after you get off drugs. Unfortunately, I had the chance to meet one of the girls with this kind of problem, but when she get pregnant she change 100% and now it's a good mommy.

I must say, your experience was smoother than many of us. Probably your professional experience made the job easier for you. Many of us often experience depression in post natal phase and it can grow from simple issues like wanting to get rid of acne and most of the time it triggers misunderstanding between partners. I believe dealing with post natal phase is the most difficult part for a mother and if you could consider sharing some advice with us on how to deal with post pregnancy issues then it would be great for us.

I've just meet Dr Kovak, and he is one of the best plastic surgeons in the country. If you don't get rid of the extra kilos, you can always appeal to him.

crazysony's picture

This is a very interesting and useful post! Usually pregnant women suffer a depression when they see that they've became overweight and some of them need specialized help and support in order to ease anxiety.Moreover there are women who consider that pregnancy makes them more sexy and attractive.

It is really not easy to handle such a difficult phase in your life but take good care of yourself. Sometimes you might face problems like thinning hair talk to your doctor about it.

You are living the most rewarding and the most complicated phase of your life and you should feel happy but you have to get used the changes in your body and body’s muscles.

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